My Confidence in God  A meditation on Psalm 139 Father, you know me better than I could ever know myself. You know, in all truth, what I have been, what I am and what I will become. You know me when I am loving and when I am selfish. You know when I succeed and when I fail. You know everything about me. And yet, father, you love me more than I will ever know. You don’t hold it against me that I fail or am discouraged. You also try to show me that I should not hold it against myself,    because, by doing so, I will fail to love more. You are forgiving and loving. It is beyond my understanding. I read your word and am inspired,    but then immediately feel its poverty in my own life. But, Father, if I do try to escape you, really where can I go? Deep down I never want to escape you,but sometimes I try. Help me to realise that at these times you will support me,    you will send me the light needed,    you will send your consolation through another;    you will send your strength and courage. God my Father, you know my thoughts. Guide me to you. You know what I desire even though I do not always move towards my goal.